![]() ![]() ![]() And I think it’s rather easy to conflate a situation like this into some sort of moral failing like, “oh Sarah, you are just lazy. It’s not like I have a broken arm and the bone is jutting out. And one of the many difficult things about feeling this way is it is so difficult to communicate what you’re going through with someone who is not going through it. Like that’s the one thing that I’ve been clinging to. I was telling Tim this morning, that lately the only thing that’s been getting me out of bed is the desire for a really delicious cup of coffee. ![]() It’s making it increasingly difficult for me to get through my day without being exhausted and knowing that I’m going to have to get out of bed and face a nightmare, circus of emotions, panic, fear, overwhelm, burnout, et cetera, makes me really not wanna get out of bed in the first place. But I do know that it is making it increasingly difficult for me to focus on my work instead of panicking through it and not doing a good job. So I don’t know precisely what this is or if it’s something that we can even be precise about. Like when you have a cut on the roof of your mouth and your tongue, can’t stop poking at it and making it hurt more and more and driving it further and further into your own focus. And maybe it’s something that’s accentuated by me paying attention to it and focusing on it. Maybe it’s a combination of all or several of these things. I can’t say for certain, whether it’s anxiety, fear, overwhelm, burnout, depression, ADHD, just the world that we live in today… Maybe even simple excitement that I’m misinterpreting. I told my newsletter subscribers that I feel like my heart is a runaway stage coach driven by a horse that got spooked and is now dragging my body through the crowded town square of life. Lately, I’ve woken up every morning to a pounding heart, to racing breath, and to a very intense feeling of panic and anxiety. And I promise this podcast episode is not just going to be a laundry list of complaints, but it starts like this: Maybe it’s simply reflective of me but whatever it is, I am not it. All things considered.” Or maybe this is cynical of me to drop the baseline for daily existence from doing “well” as the norm to doing “okay” as the norm. Like, “how are you doing?” “Well, I’m okay. More so than the word, “well”, I feel like, “okay” encompasses sort of the baseline for life. I know grammatically, I should probably say I have not been well lately, but I like the phrase “doing okay”. I’m your host, Sarah Werner and perhaps appropriately for today’s topic of discussion. Welcome to Write Now, the podcast that helps all writers – aspiring, professional, and otherwise finds the time, energy, and courage you need to pursue your passion and write. This is the Write Now podcast with Sarah Werner episode 144: “When You’re Not Okay”. ![]()
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